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Speaker 1:
[00:00] You remember me getting upset with you? Yeah. What upset me the most is that you've been such a good friend to me all summer long. Like it bothers you when you see Kyle disrespect me and someone who's been so supportive of me and looking out for me and standing up for me, and then to watch you disrespect Ciara in that way, it just puts this weird dynamic in place.

Speaker 2:
[00:24] No, that's why I've been trying to f***ing protect everything for the last time. Welcome back to another episode here at Everyone's Business But Mine. We're having fun. Summer's not fun anymore. I'm not having fun, but we're here, and we're going to get into it because we have to, because basically what we watched, Jordan Peele could possibly never. This was the get out too that we don't deserve, but I think the one that we've earned in some former fashion. Horror movie right from jump, bitch. We start off with the episode. Obviously, we're coming off of West having made out with that random chick. Didn't even realize how random she was until later. And she's, you know, trying to keep it tight, but she's there with her girl, Mia, and also Amanda. I was about to say her girls. She was there with her girl, Mia, and Amanda also happened to be there. Gripping on to this woman, Ciara, even expressing through the use of her digits, pointing to herself saying, I see you. And then pointing to Ciara as the you. This is just so thoroughly stupid. This is why I was saying we all just need to watch this episode back because there's no point, especially Amanda, where there was not a complete understanding of Ciara's feelings and her emotions and where she stood within this relationship with West, and West's position and how he's been playing it. So, I'm just really confused as to how the F we got here. I'm irked. I do think on another level, I have locked myself down on the timeline for me. I'm sticking with there was an affair happening in summer. Physically, no. Do I think that it happened in this episode? Emotionally, for Amanda? Absolutely. So, let's get into it. We're hugging Ciara. Unhand her. You deserve so much more respect than what you get. You truly do. You're so loved. You're so important. Bitch, get the fuck. Ciara goes to the bathroom to collect herself, and then everybody gets ready to go back into the Hamptons to watch Kyle DJ that night. People got really mad because, as we know, Ben runs a strict program. Sabrina seemed like she was dilly-dallying on getting dressed, and at one point, they're in the bedroom, and he's like, okay, Sabrina, for real? Like, you gotta get ready. Please do me a favor. Get ready. God forbid we ever have children. We gotta get them ready for school. People are like, Police! Please abuse him. Okay. On the one hand, Sabrina's outfit that she did come up with was like, girl, the Holly Madison jumped out. We're talking like a mini dress, tall knee-high socks and some chucks. She came back from the club saying how blessed and wonderful life is and how lucky they are. So, I don't know, was she rolling? I don't know, but I think we can all calm down. Sabrina was low-key laughing when he was like, oi, mate, get ready, she don't care. So, let it go, I don't want to talk about Ben anymore. I figured out what happened. It's all Amanda's fault with the whole Bailey thing. And outside of that, Ben's really like, you know, whatever, give or take for me. So, let me move on, please. So, I feel like we see the last moment where Kyle and Amanda say, I love you to each other on camera or possibly in life. They go to bed. He's like, thank you so much for coming tonight. I love you. And she's like, course, love you too. The next morning, Mia, she wakes up. She's had another dream about her parents. And she tells us since my mom passed away, the last year or so, I've been like kind of just putting my head down and doing whatever I needed to do to survive in my relationships, in my friendships, in my work. That's the last thing my mom would want me to be doing. She wants me to live and have fun and experience life. She does not want me to be out here crying on TV. Like that's not my vibe. KJ and Dara are in their bedroom talking about the night before. Dara says the girls have been so great. And they were telling me like, shout out to you and KJ for forming a relationship and not making it everyone's problem. And KJ is like, yeah, we're really not like that. You know, like making people uncomfortable. That's not really our thing. And thank you for that. Because we know who's thing it is and I just can't possibly take it anymore. So thank you for not tipping me over the scales, KJ. Thank you, Dara. KJ tells us in a confessional, I've never liked a girl this much. This is different. Like I'm someone who needs to protect themselves because I've been hurt very badly in the past, both in relationships and friendships. So I do have a wall up. But when someone comes along who might be that person for you and you have a wall up, you might ruin it intentionally. And I don't want to do that with Dara. Then Dara goes in to Ciara and Mia's room to check in on them because they went to bed before her. They're like, oh, we just passed out. What happened with y'all? And first KJ is in the room. He's sitting in a little chair at the side. And when Dara's like, girls, West got obliterated and he could not talk about anything else, KJ's like, okay, bye. But I wanted to know more about that. She tells Ciara, he couldn't talk about anything else, you, like you were the only thing on his mind. But I have a feeling nothing he said was like kind or thinking about Ciara. It was probably the loop that he's been on since last summer. Like I've been so good. I'm trying to be so good and like, wow, I didn't do anything. Like, you know, I know that that's what he did because he didn't come out of this situation having any more perspective than he did before. Unfortunately, Ciara's got a fresh perspective. She tells us in a confessional, I don't think my true self wants to dive head first in the pool and say, let's be friends. Let's pick up where we left off and get gullentural friends. I want to do that. But like, I can't. I'm scared to because I know how much I put myself out there. And even in a friendship, I don't want to feel like I've been bamboozled again. Now, we know at this point, this had to have been a confessional filmed after she knew, at the very least after she had some kind of inkling. So, God help us. Mia declares, West is in the dog house and Dara's like, no, I'm like really mad at him, like tighten it up. Exactly. I feel like if Dara, if West had said anything that was kind, Dara knows West, right? Like she knows how he rolls. I feel like she probably would have tried to help the situation out had he said anything positive. And I don't think he did. I don't think he did. But anyway, Carl's downstairs being Big Daddy Carl, in the mix, ordering a whole display of McDonald's breakfast, hash browns that he placed intentionally on a cutting board, like gorgeous display. Everybody, you know, the, we had like the real breakfast platters, and the pancakes, the eggs, the bacon, the little sausage circles. Sabrina and Bailey are down there like, this is so nice, thank you so much. And Carl's like, you know, I love to make sure my family is taken care of. And both of them are like, mm-hmm. Love that. Thank you for saying that, Carl. It was extremely hot. And then he went and used his long limbs to go kill a fly in the kitchen. See, y'all weren't seeing the vision. When he, we, we, me and Carl were in the trenches for years together. And y'all were like, boo, tomato Kara, eww, how could you possibly? And now, now it's happened. I've gotten a return on my investment, haven't I? Welcome. Finally, you've made it here. Take a hash brown and let's sit down for breakfast. By the way, if you're a Trader Joe's head and you want to have like a McDonald's breakfast experience, I'm gonna put you on right now. Full Trader Joe's, everything you can purchase there. They have little, in the frozen section, little pancakes and they've got maple syrup in them like a McGriddle. Okay, so then what you're gonna do, cook an egg to your preference. I like like an over medium because I like the yolk, but like, you know, make it however you prefer. And then you can get bacon, you can get a little sliced cheese, and then it's right there. And they have the little hash brown things that are exactly like the ones that you get at McDonald's, little like half circle ones. Perfect meal. Like once a month, I'm like, I got McDonald's at home. And like I actually genuinely do. So I'm living a great life and you know, you're welcome in advance. They're called the Dutch griddle cakes, by the way. There you go. So when Ciara comes down to join everybody for family breakfast and West and Amanda, oh, guess who can't talk again? Guess who's on mute. And then this bitch has the nerve to be in a confessional. Like, yeah, of course I feel bad. You know, my main objective still every day is like, don't upset Ciara, don't hurt her feelings. And we were kind of on a good track. You know, just like all of the slow progress we made, even just flirting after midnight, still kind of helped me feel comfortable in this house. And to think that I ruined it by making out with somebody I've never even met before just kind of like sucks. Well, I don't know what to tell you because you invited her, some chick who you slid in her DMs or something like you didn't even you've never met this woman. The night before you made the decision to go through your followings, slide through your DMs, slide through your phone lists, and invite 97,000 girls, one hot according to you. And then you bring her over to this little makeshift VIP section, find the only seat as close to Ciara as you could possibly get. She gets in your lap, you're like, oh no, this is the girl I kind of dated. But like, who cares? I don't give a fuck. This was intentionality from word jump. And this is why we're like, this man hates her. He definitely resents her. And he for sure hates her. Like, this is so crazy. You didn't even know this girl? I hate to say it, but at least with Amanda, I can see you having some kind of emotional stake with her. There's a history there. You don't have any history with her. Like, maybe a Snapchat streak? So like, why should she have to take on the responsibility of your very intentional actions? That you knew you were going to bring this girl into the home to hook up with her. Otherwise, why would you do this? Like, what is wrong with you, bro? This was not, I met a girl at the party and we made out randomly and I did not expect it. This was a very intentional act from start to finish, which leads me to believe that he fully wanted, expected to have Ciara blow up in some form or fashion. And then he could just be like, well, now it's over and I can do whatever the fuck I want. And it didn't work because she did not give him the reaction that he wanted. She didn't explode. She barely cried, like she's clearly upset, but like he can't do anything but be, pretend to be accountable for this as we all watch the episode. Ever who he said to her was about his feelings, but here we are. Before they get back into the city, West knocks on Ciara's door and is like, I just want to apologize for being a shitty friend. And then it's all about him. I'm like, yeah, I don't feel good at all. And I'm personally bummed because like on a friendship level, things were pretty okay. And I hope I didn't fuck up what was built for the rest of the summer. Ciara says, I mean, this is why I did not want to be friends with you to begin with. I want you to be free to be able to live your life or whatever. So like, let's just keep it at that. I think it's best if we're not friends. So West does not want to accept that. And he's like, yeah, well, it's just like a lot harder for me, I guess. Like, I've been closer to you than anyone here. And I really fucking jeopardize that. And I apologize because it hurts me. It hurts me. Not you. Like, I'm sorry I hurt you. No, it hurts me. And I would take it back if I could. And I'm like, not really great at articulating myself a lot, but like, I put so much effort into showing that like, I do care. And it just sounds like none of that mattered. Like, how do you not interpret that as like, I've done everything I could, I did one little oopsie-a-oh, and all of my good deeds were for nothing? Why would you phrase it like that? I guess none of that mattered. What did you want her to do? Get you some water? Get you a little towel? Get you some breast bits so that you could shove this girl's, your tongue down this girl's throat? Like, what did you want? Did you want to like, be like, oh my god, West, who is that girl? Good for you, babe. Thank you so much. Yeah, once you intentionally do an act and say, I don't care, it doesn't matter. Yeah, you acting like you cared and that it did matter to you, no longer matters. It's null and void because you just said none of this actually mattered to you. So that really feels like a you problem, Westling. West goes on to be like, you said you're okay with awkwardness, but I'm not, it bugs me horribly. Like, I'm not good at pretending to not know each other. I don't know how to do that. It takes a lot out of me. Okay, but she's the hurt party in this, and you don't want to accept her boundary, because it's uncomfy for you. Again, a you problem. Ciara says, I just don't really have anything to offer you right now, and that's that, unfortunately, not for long. We head back in the city, Ciara's meeting up with Mia and her brother Nick to introduce her to her medium that she met in Costa Rica after processing the loss of her grandmother. Now, unfortunately, Ciara sees Mia and her brother walking down the street and goes, if I didn't know that you guys are related, I thought you would make a really good looking couple. And they're both like, oh, okay. I think Nick might be Mia's older brother, but they're like linked up real bad. He lives four blocks away. She's trying to get him to move into the building. She says, Nick is the best thing my parents could have ever given me. And like, I love him. We're super close. Ciara joins them inside. She's got a pad of paper. She's like gonna take notes, just be very present. And it's just wild. Tiffany, shout out to you. I looked at that website. She's booked up until 2027, y'all. So forget it. Find somebody else. Congrats, girl. But Tiffany clocks two women that she senses and there's a necklace that was given that I guess their grandmother had given to one of them. And she says she picks up on their mom and she's like, she's okay. She's saying, you know, you're gonna have a dream about me or you have and I just want you to know that I can breathe okay and I'm happy. Now Mia starts bawling immediately at the breathing aspect and she says her mom had sarcoidosis. So she had a really hard time breathing. She ended up passing away of pneumonia. And you know, like things just kind of got exacerbated. And even before her passing the sarcoidosis was like something that really scared Mia. Her mom ended up going into a respiratory attack because she couldn't breathe. And then Tiffany mentions her mom saying something like, why did you take a picture of my hands? And Mia says, well, because I always said, we are the same hands and I didn't want to forget. So then Mia talks about how she has been feeling, like she asks Tiffany to ask her mom, am I on the right path? Am I doing the right thing? Because I've been feeling very stagnant and she admits to feeling like a little bit annoyed with her mom because they had plans. She was going to move up to New York. Mia was going to have a baby. Her mom was going to help raise the baby and that was going to be their thing. And I totally get that. Again, not to make it about myself, but like after my dad died, one of the predominant feelings was like, that's not fair. Like I had so much more time with him. There were so many things that I wanted to do, so many questions that I wanted to ask. I, you know, barely 25, like this is so unfair. And I totally get that, like, we had plans, bro. You fucked up the whole program. But Tiffany tells Mia, don't worry, the plan's still going ahead. You're going to have your baby girl. Like just, you know, the plan's still happening, girl. So don't worry about it. Oh, what a, like, uh, like, the tears. I'm trying not to cry. What a powerful moment. I feel like it's been a while since we've had these personal stories on Summer House. Um, and I like it. Mia's such a star. Oh my god. I tell you one thing, your mom's watching over the fact that you don't have to suffer the same fate as Vanita and Ciara and that the audience is largely loving you and you're having a very soft landing. And I'm very grateful for that personally so that I don't have to get on this microphone and fight for her and another black woman on Bravo. I'm going to tell you something, I actually DM'd Mia about this. I'm like, thank God people love you. Thank God so I don't have to fight for you. She's like, well, let's see. But we're here now. This is a while ago and smooth sailing early. And then we go straight to hell, aka 82 Stanton for a dog adoption of it. I actually don't think 82 Stanton is that bad. It's pretty bro-y. It's very West-coded. But like, it could be worse. It could be worse. I've had a drink or two there. I'm not gonna lie. West is hosting a dog adoption event or he's part of it. I don't care. I wish the man got bit. That's what I wanted. Grab the ankle and rock his shit up and down Allen Street. I don't give a fuck. Anyway, Amanda and Kyle show up and the editors get so shady because when Amanda and West greet each other, they hug. Not only does the camera zoom in, the music stops. It is just like three seconds of watching Amanda close her eyes in this embrace. Oh, Lord. Kyle goes to order West and his girlfriend some drinks, so they have a little scene on their own. They're like building something for the step and repeat, but Amanda's like, How was your weekend? If you had some time to reflect, do you remember? And West is like, Yeah, you know, I've had to scare you pretty horribly. Yeah, I remember you being upset with me. And Amanda says, What upset me the most is that you've been such a good friend to me all summer long. Like it bothers me when you see Kyle disrespect me. And as someone who's been so supportive and looking out for me and standing up to me, then to watch you disrespect Ciara in that way, it just really put this weird dynamic in place. Maybe I'm paranoid. I feel like that's a weird thing to say. And now you're centering yourself in Ciara and West in a way that does not make sense. It only makes sense in the context of you now trying to work out, this guy's been really protecting me. West has been so supportive of me. West has been so kind to me with Kyle West. Huh. And I think in her mind, the disconnect, the weird dynamic rather is how do I, it's not like, oh, how do I maintain a friendship with you, West, when you're not being nice to my friend? It's like, how do I square this in my mind? Because I think I actually kind of like it. Because I have a husband who has been defending, guess who, Ciara, and not me for years now. And I don't like that, even though, really, it doesn't have anything to do with me. It's about me. I would dare say that Amanda has displayed her own resentments toward Kyle for being so kind to Ciara. She said it last week. I don't think she realizes that she feels some type of way about Ciara, but now she's seeing an uno reverse happening. And now the guy that Ciara's got her eye on and whatever is now supporting me. And so maybe like you really were like, I'm really gonna uno reverse. Like for real, for real. But West tells Amanda, I'm not a fucking idiot. I know when I understand why it was disrespectful and hurtful. But now I'm just like, what did I jeopardize? Like was it friendship or was it rekindling? Or was it just her tolerating me for the last eight weeks this summer? I'm really trying to figure out like why it would matter. You fucked up the dynamic, bro. Amanda says there are a lot of moving pieces and layers to it. Because if you hated each other, then it would be like, go ahead, do whatever you want. But rumor has it, you guys are super flirty when you go out at night. And West is like, yeah, that's true. But now the friendship is fucked. Any advice? She's like, how about you? How about we go over to your apartment? Let's fuck it up a little bit more. Then she tells him, don't go silent. Take accountability. Just apologize. No ifs, ands or buts. So I feel like for everybody questioning, how is it possible that Amanda could possibly think that West is going to treat her any better than he treated Ciara? And it's, well, because he has, at least in her mind. She's only seeing the green flags of West treating her kindly and not all of the red flags of like his resentment. Like he's not, she's not listening to like what he's saying when he's trying to justify his behavior. Good luck, babe. But anyway, we're headed back up to the Hamptons. Mia's driving, Dara and Ciara, and her boyfriend, Scott. He's up for the night. He's makes a little kind of offhand comment about how he's going to be traveling again and like he's going to be gone for a couple of weeks and he is not happy about that. And Mia's in the driver's seat like, no, I'm not. They try to rope Scott into like being a girl's girl for the weekend and hanging out with us. He's like, but I am a guy's guy. And they're like, boo, ew. He's like, no, like I'm like, you know, like I'm for the girls too, but like I want to throw the pigskin around. They're like, never mind, Scott. Wes is in the car with the rest of the dudes. It is seven dudes in this house. No Bailey, no Levi. I wonder why, was there a second to last weekend? Seven dudes, the only three girls there are Ciara, Mia and Dara. No Amanda, hold on for that. Wes is in the car saying some athlete bullshit about how he's like getting back in the game and the only thing I can do is make sure I've got a good attitude and put in some good effort. And Amanda told me this week like to apologize. KJ says, but there's only so much apologizing you can do, which all the guys interpret it as like, oh, so you mean just like stop apologizing? And KJ is like, no, I mean, let your actions speak for themselves. And Jessie's like, what do you mean? Like, like make her sandwiches? Like, like, huh? Like don't make out with girls in front of Ciara. And KJ is like, well, yeah, that, but also move accordingly. And West says, well, I've been doing that for two years now. No, you haven't. First summer, you wouldn't speak to her. We started off kind of okay. I don't really know what happened. And then you decided to make out with a girl. And so I don't really know what to tell you. Anyway, Dara lets the other car know she and KJ are now official boyfriend, girlfriend, and Mia and Ciara like, Whoa, hold on. Mia's like, Hold on, I need details. She's got her hands up. And Ciara's like, Girl, put your hands on the wheel. But Dara says, We both know what we want. I just think it feels right to full send it. Hopefully, I won't eat my words one day. So everybody's at the house. Kyle's by the pool, he's on the phone. The guys join him in the backyard. And Kyle's like, What if it was just like a boy's weekend? And Kyle's like, Well, that might just happen. Just got off the phone with Amanda, because I thought she was coming later, but I don't think she's coming at all. So then Ciara goes up to KJ. Everybody's in the backyard now. Ciara's found herself a little juice box. And she starts doing the girlfriend dance. Oh, heard you got a girlfriend. Uh-uh, uh-uh, how you feel? And I do think that's the exact strategy that she should do with West. Just get on that reunion stage, be like, heard you got a girlfriend. How's it feel? How you feeling, West? Scene of the episode, Mia, KJ and Ciara have their little conversation, all of their outfits individually eating. KJ was looking real nice, not to pull a bit too late here, but I did see him like, oh, you got a girl and you got your little hair, your mustache, go a little goatee. He was looking good. I'm a facial hair kind of girl. So he was looking great to me. Anyway, not the point. They asked him, how do you feel? And he's like, same, honestly. Ciara is like, but it's been a week. I didn't get a text message or nothing about this. KJ is like, well, I was waiting to see you guys face to face. And Ciara says, I'm never too busy for tea, ever. Ciara does tell him, I just want you to brace yourself. You know, I'm telling you as somebody who's done multiple share houses, granted, I'm speaking from bad experience, but there's just no reason to rush the process. I know you feel like you like her a lot, but like there doesn't have to be a proposal anytime soon. And Mia tells KJ, you know what you want, you're emotionally intelligent, but I just want to make sure you're aligned with what you want, like both of you, and the realities. Because, you know, Dara's a little bit older, and you just need to be aware of like what might come with that. And KJ is like, yeah, for sure. So then Ciara goes inside because Amanda did not tell her, I'm not coming to the house. So she FaceTimes her and is like, girl, what the hell's going on? There are seven boys and three girls here. I'm going to kill you. So Amanda tells her, I just can't do it. Like the idea of going out there was just overwhelming me so much. I was just like, I need to not go. So Amanda says in a confessional, obviously this summer for Kyle and I has been a bit rough. And I feel like it's sort of catching up to me at this point. Like I've been showing up with a smile on my face every weekend, which I don't think is true. But anyway, she claims that she was being the joyful bubbly Amanda, just trying to power through it all. But it got to a point where I can't take it anymore. And I just need to be alone right now. So she tells Ciara, I just need to give myself some time. And I do believe that Amanda obviously talked to West. We saw it. I feel like she's probably realizing on some level that the feelings for West that she has are creeping in. But then again, like when she told him, how do I reconcile you being so kind and supportive to me, but like you treating Ciara this way? I honestly think this is where she started catching feelings and was like, I can't be there for that. She's making it about Kyle. I don't really know that it is. It just doesn't feel like that for me, especially given the preview, the preview for next week did not help where they're at the soft bar, the soft bar opening. And she's like, what happened to all these feelings? Like y'all went from zero to 100 and I was gone. I don't know. Something about that just felt like, Chelsea, I'm a little caught off guard here. I don't know. I feel like she sat this weekend out for reasons that only had to do with Kyle because she's technically married to him. So while Ciara and Amanda are still on FaceTime, West comes knocking on the door, nipples out, and he's like, this will take 30 seconds. I'm sorry, is this an apology? Oh, are you on FaceTime? Oh, I can come back. And Ciara's like, no, just go ahead and do it now. So again, all about his feelings. Don't feel any better. You don't have to reply. I just want you to know that after, I'm like, pretty bummed out about it and I apologize. That's it. Tell whoever that is what's up. And then he leaves. And Amanda and Ciara do have like a kind of funny moment of like, oh my God, what was that? And Amanda says, all that build up, I'm so sorry. And they're like laughing about how awkward that was. How do you approach somebody for a conversation and just be like, this is just going to take 30 seconds. I like don't feel any better. I wish I could think of the person who said this, that West sounds like he's always mid burp. Like he's got a bubble in his throat just waiting to come out when he talks. And he really does. Just want to say like, I apologize. Pretty bummed. That's it. Anyway. Then Ciara says in a confessional, here's the thing, I don't hate him. And it's getting exhausted, keeping up the front that I do. I filled up all these stories in my head about the things that he's done. And I'm sure he's built up stories in his head. And we should probably just talk and put it all out there. So she goes over to his room and I was like, hey, do you want to get coffee in the morning? And he's like, yes, RSVPing, yes. So everybody's having a great time. They had a great night. We're old school summer house, like partying in the kitchen. Kyle's gotten a hold of the kitchen hose and he is just spraying water wherever the f**k. At some point he and Ben slipped on the water. And I'm talking so much water, so much water that he had to get goggles to shield his eyes, just full stream right in his face. But Kyle says in a confessional, this is the first time all summer that I'm feeling a little bit more light hearted, a little bit more like myself. And it's because my wife is nowhere to be seen. And that's a rude awakening, because it just makes me realize how f**ked we really are. Before bed, Kyle and Ben have a little heart to heart in Club Send It. And they're sitting on a bench and Kyle's telling Ben, honestly, I feel like these first couple weeks, like you saw me at my worst. And Ben looks at him like full drama and he goes, I think it's at your worst, mate. I see what you've gone through. I don't think I'm judging you. Everybody goes through troubles with their business and their relationships. And I'm not looking at you like that's who you are, mate. I know exactly who you are. Okay, girls, calm down. So the next morning, Mia and Scott are in bed. Scott's got to leave. He's like, I wish you were staying for the boat. But then Mia tells us in a confessional, grief is paralyzing at times. And I know this is heavy. And I know you didn't sign up for this. And my smart ass is like, well, you're talking to production. They literally signed up for this. But that's not the point. She says, my mom speaking to me with this media made me feel like, OK, you need to start moving on and making decisions in your life. And I needed to hear that. And now I'm looking at my relationship like, OK, this is probably where I'm stagnant and I need to make a change. And I'm just going to put any Scott and Mia opinions that I have, I'm just going to put them in the cupboard until Mia lets us know where she and Scott stand today. And I will adjust accordingly. I will say the idea of Mia and Ciara being in the summer house and single and having a great time does really excite me. So, just, you know, wherever the wind blows on that, I'll just move accordingly, like I said. Anyway, Ciara and West go to talk. Everybody's planning on going to, like, a boat party thing, but they go to the location ahead of everybody. So they're, like, hanging out in these seating area. West starts with, um, so Ciara has to be, like, yeah, it's been, like, two years with Nothing Really Said. And I'm almost scared to be nice to you or be myself because I'm afraid of being embarrassed. And last weekend was so weird because it was the very thing I was afraid of happen. And you sat right next to me and you didn't see me. And I just feel like all of that's very triggering in this cycle of, like, whatever the fuck our relationship is. And West says, yeah, subjecting you to that was fucked up and I'm apologizing. Not I'm sorry, I'm apologizing. So Ciara says, I was just trying to think things over this week and I don't really mean to rehash things, but in terms of you talking to the press and media, that was kind of the nail in the coffin. And your wording was, we're not each other's people. But I considered you a best friend and the worst part is I don't call people my best friend likely and I don't have the type of relationship that I had with you with everyone. And I just felt like I didn't expect that from you. So again, yeah, like hearing you say the words back to me, that's like really sad. Like there's no way to make it hurtless, but in that moment, I was just under attack and we weren't communicating. So naturally, I tried to defend myself. Bro, there are so many other avenues that you could have taken other than pouting for the New York Times in a photo shoot. Like, okay, there was no communication, but like, how about some perspective, babe? How about, like, really, if you're so digging into the comment section, maybe take stock in what's actually being said. And if you feel the need to defend yourself so badly, going to publications and not directly to the person who you hurt is so weird. And no, it's really not natural that you sign up for an interview and photo shoot in which you repeatedly say, I just really wasn't that into her basically, like, and I'm sorry to that woman, but, like, it is what it is. It really blows me that this man is in journalism. He works in media. He certainly has seen aspects of PR and how people are supposed to present themselves to the media. And it's just like, he was like, I'm going to be America's sweetheart. And the minute that got taken away by Ciara having a feeling and making him not the best boy in Manhattan, then he's hated her ever since. Like, she blew up his spot in his mind, and that's it. So he will apologize, but he's not going to be sorry. He just wants to smooth things over to curry his favor with us. And how's that going, West? He has had literal years to consider her feelings, to consider the impact of his words, to not victimize himself, to not center himself and the comments, and then, you know, make a relationship weird with Ciara because of it. So many things could have happened, and they didn't. And what kills me is that Ciara, unfortunately, is like almost there, but not quite. Ciara apologizes to him for saying, I'm sorry I did not text you. I'm sorry for not being there. I can take accountability for not being there for you when you probably needed it. But this probably also wouldn't be the same situation if we didn't have all the cameras or the fans or anything. It would be a lot simpler, but it hasn't been. Yeah, but I think the way Ciara is looking at this is from the perspective of like, not West took too much stock in what the fans were saying. I think it was more so like, we are seeing, I don't know. I think maybe it's more from her perspective, like people hyping her up and being like, West and maybe in her mind she feels some side of sort of guilt about that for like indulging in that even though clearly she should have. You know, and I think what she's saying is like, maybe I would have been more easily forgiving of you had it not been for the fan reaction. And that's like true, but not in a way that she needs to be responsible for because he took that and went sicko mode. And now she's feeling any sort of responsibility. Like that's wild. So West goes on to be like, yeah. And the other part is like, I know what my phone looks like. And it's like so many people talking about you and comparing us or talking shit on me. And it's just like super nasty. And your natural instinct is to like resent the person that everyone is shitting on you about, you know? Like when the reality is you're not doing anything of it, which is like a weird thing. Grow up. Grow up. How hard would it be for you to look at user 230-897 and be like, this is not Ciara. This is their feelings. I can't punish Ciara for the internet's feelings about me. Maybe they're catching on to something because they're watching a show. Maybe I should look inward instead of my immediate reaction. And the fact that he's looking here like, you know, like that's a natural thing, right? Like obviously this is a foregone conclusion that you would hate the person who people are rooting for. No. Like actually, no. It's so crazy that now in this conversation, this is the best you can do. And then poor Ciara telling West, I don't want people talking bad about you. I don't want them saying that you're a bad person because I don't think you are. I want to be normal around you, but it's hard because I don't even know what that looks like. And West says, obviously, I can see that you still clearly have a bunch of walls up. And I hate that because when you told me about the house in North Carolina, I knew that story more than anybody at that table. And I wanted to talk to you about it and tell you how proud I was and how cool that was. Not a single thing stopping you, West. Not one thing. So then he says, even if, the only thing that was stopping him was his pride. Like he, I swear, probably did not want to be like giving this woman a compliment on camera because he and his mind is like still resentful of her. So why should he celebrate her wins? Even though I was there the whole time. Okay, I mean, it sounds like Mia was also there. Like she told everybody what a difficult undertaking this was. So Mia was also there. And the fact that you would take her accomplishment and then turn it into you being bad at her because you don't know how to approach her about her accomplishments. Insane. You literally could have sat at that table and said, Congratulations, and that would have been it. That could have just been the end of it. Your thought should be, damn, I hate that I fucked up this relationship because I really would like to root for this girl. And I don't think that I have earned that in this moment. But instead you saw her getting hyped up and you were like, how can I make this about me? And this is why you and Amanda are actually great for each other because Amanda had heard two little jokes when Ciara was getting hyped up too. When they had that race conversation and she was pretending to be supportive and then she made her little joke at the end like, oh, why don't we all go around and say something nice about me? Well, I don't think that's funny anymore, Amanda. I take back my laughter. And then when Ciara is talking about the house and they're going around like, oh, who else owns property? Oh, Lindsay? Oh, well, isn't it so crazy that I don't have my house by now? Like, that's so crazy. Not really. I mean, there's nothing stopping you. You're the one who wanted to move to New Jersey. So, figure it out. Is it like so crazy that I don't have a house? No, it's not. Because they put in the effort and you didn't. So, so then this little motherfucker tells Ciara, even if we never talk again, I just want you to know that like, I'm sorry, and I like, was obviously really hurt, but like now it's been a long time, and I've had a lot of time to reflect on the family stuff. Like, I don't want to have to say like, sorry for like, bringing you home and doing all that, because it meant a lot to me and it was fun. But I wasn't really thinking about like, how impactful things like that could be. And that was probably such a mindfuck. And I just want you to know that I thought about that a lot. And I understand things a lot better than I did. No, you didn't. What should be interpreted is taking you home was fun for me. But it really didn't mean anything emotionally in the same way they did for you. And that sucks, like for you. But I do want you to know that I have considered that that sucks for you. Um, so there's that. I just want to put that out there. Not even like a, I genuinely cared about you. And I don't even know like why you could say I've, it took you all this time to consider that. When she told you before, when you guys were getting to know each other, how seriously she takes relationships, where she needs to be for you guys to be able to even be sexually and physically intimate with each other. And even in those confessionals, like go back and watch. She's like, you know, like I really want to have sex with her. Like, no, like I will respect her, but like I don't want to. It was like the like wasn't my plan this summer. I was like, you know, not trying to wait this summer. Like I can, but you know, fuck him. Truly, fuck him. And also at this point, don't take me to West Wilson's house. Don't take me back to the Wilson Family Farm because you took Kyle there like a month ago. When you were banging his missus. So I think that's maybe like a portal. For the ultimate disrespect, don't accept an invitation. If you're, if you're with West, if you're one of the 75 women who've been with West in the past six weeks, don't, don't book that ticket girl. Don't do it. Only bad things will happen to you. Then this man says, I see you more. And this scary cello music starts playing because that's exactly what Amanda said to Ciara at the beginning of the episode. I see you. And Ciara says, I feel like that's all I wanted. And West tells her, I'm happier like when you and I communicate, I feel. Like, I mean, we can like move forward with whatever boundaries you want. Like, I could be your best friend tomorrow. And Ciara starts welling up with tears and says, can we just be best friends? And he finally gets up. I forgot to mention this this whole time. Oh my God. He's not making one bit of eye contact with her. They're sitting in a these benches that are like, you know, like a corner, like a corner. Does that make sense? L-shaped, there we go. An L-shaped bench. And he's not even got his body positioned in her direction. She's facing him. He's facing perpendicular of her. So it's not even like he's not making contact. He's not even got his body in the direction of, like, I'm talking to this woman. Like, had they not been making eye contact with each other, you didn't know who those two people were. You would think maybe these are just two strangers waiting on a bench for the people that they actually know. Crazy. Crazy. He could not even look at her. But then he's wrapped up in her embrace, unhand her. And then they're, like, making a little jokey joke. She's like, why didn't you stop Jessie from making out with me? She's like, what was I going to do? And she's like, help me. Save me. And then they're laughing and they're like, I just wish that could have been a funnier joke. But it's not. And now at this point, I think maybe we should dedicate one little segment, maybe Jessie Solomon's segment, because he really doesn't have much to talk about, should just be him and Ciara making out on stage. Just do it. Do it! I don't care. Oh, this is gonna be hell. Actually, it's not. I'm going into this reunion, and I know we're like weeks out. I've let go and let God, because I know that Amanda and West are not going to come up with anything that makes any kind of sense, or is going to be anything worth tethering myself to in terms of contrition and a real apology. And so with that being said, I'm just going to enjoy the ride. I'm not going to even bother building up a feeling of expecting them to be good people. It's not going to happen. So we're just going to see what people say to them, because that's going to be the entertaining part for me. Can't wait, I think. Thank you guys so much for listening. Thank me for speaking. Love you. Bye.