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Speaker 1:
[00:00] Spring just slid into your DMs. Grab that boho look for that rooftop dinner, those sandals that can keep up with you, and hang some string lights to give your patio a glow up. Spring's calling. Ross, work your magic.

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[00:17] Hello, hello, hello. Happy Wednesday, and welcome back to The Wellness Cafe Podcast. I'm your host, Trin Tondeleir. Today, this episode is for all my girlies who feel a little lost, a little disconnected, unmotivated, or if you feel like you're just lacking that spark and excitement for life lately. In today's episode, we are going old school. That's right, you heard that. Old school TWC thought daughter shit for today, all right? And we are going to talk about how to get your spark back. You may or may not have heard me say many times lately that I feel so full of life and inspired again lately. And for a while there, it was tough times, okay? I truly, truly, truly, truly, to my core, couldn't get excited for anything. And I don't even know if I ever really, like, really fully told you. I mean, you could probably put two and two together, but I don't think I ever really talked about the full extent of how down bad I was during the crash out breakup era. It was just, it was not good. I felt so empty. I felt so confused. I felt so dissociated that I genuinely felt dizzy while trying to live my day to day life. Like, I think I just told you last episode or a few episodes back, like Eden and I's first few runs together, I was so dissociated that in my head, I would tell myself, like, you have to go do this to practice being a human again and feeling like yourself again. I literally had to give myself pep talks to go be a human. That is how, that's how bad it was, okay? So I say all that to say that no matter how lost you feel right now or how unmotivated you are, I want to first say and tell you that I have been there, done that, and if you've been listening all along, you have probably physically heard the transformation and watched me feel alive again. So no matter how lost your spark is, by the end of today's episode, hopefully I can give you some tips on how to get it back and we will just get you feeling like yourself again in no time. But I'm really excited for today's episode. I have a lot of thoughts. We are doing a Thought Daughter episode. I went through my camera roll and just really compiled everything and really thought long and hard about every single thing I've done to get back to a place of just a spark, having my spark again, feeling like me again, being excited, laughing a lot. Like you can hear it in my voice. You can hear it in how I'm living again. Like I'm just feeling very excited and silly and free and girly and fun. And this episode was actually requested by you. So I cannot wait to get into it. And also I can finally tell you the announcement is up on my Instagram that The Wellness Cafe is now part of the Podcast One family. We did it, CWC. We are signed to a network. I am so, so, so freaking excited and so grateful for this opportunity. And I can't thank you enough for listening to the show, sharing it, posting it when you're on your hot girl walks, sending me messages about how much the show has changed your life. I just wouldn't be able to do any of this without you. And I'm so excited for this new chapter. I am back home in Vancouver, recording this episode the day before you hear it. Because I don't want being signed with a network to change how the show is. We always do it the day before, and it's like a FaceTime vibe, and that's just how it is. So when I'm in van, I will still be recording with the sparkly mic in the Girl Palace. And then when I'm traveling, I do now have the studio that I can record in, in LA and New York. So that will be really exciting because we have video there. But today I am just in the comfort of the Girl Palace. I'm still doing everything myself. I'm still editing the episodes myself. I'm still recording them myself. Basically now I just have a team that can help me execute all the ideas that I have for TWC because I'm sure you know, I have so many ideas of like meetups and merch and events and live shows, like so many things that I would love to do with TWC that I just haven't been able to do as a one woman team. So I'm so freaking excited. Like I just really hope this means that we can do live events. That is my number one priority, is getting us together for some girly girlhood events, craft days, wellness days, hot girl walks, runs. Like I actually tell me in the comments in Spotify what type of meetup you would like. Like I know we did the vision board one, so that could be fun, like I could love a craft day, but I could also love like a Pilates class together. You tell me. Also, just like, can we talk about the fact that I finally got to tell you? I originally found this out, I want to say six months ago, and it has all been in the works for that long. And keeping it a secret from you has been so difficult because you are my people. We have been doing life together for the past six years. And at this point, it truly doesn't even feel like just my accomplishment. Like it really is our accomplishment. Like we did that. If it weren't for you girlies, I would not have a career. If it weren't for you listening and sharing the show and for all of our inside jokes, like we did this. We did this together. I am so grateful for this community and this amazing, fulfilling career. Every single day, I'm so freaking excited for what this will bring for us. I'm so excited for this next chapter of TWC. I feel like, like I feel like we just like graduated. Do you know what I mean? I feel like, I don't know, I'm just very excited. One can say I have my spark back and I'm excited for life again. So I will quit yapping about how much I love you. We get it, we get it, we get it, we get it. Oh my God, but one thing I'm going to do, I'm always going to beat the dead horse and I love you. Okay? This is like, I know this is like what I was put on this earth to do was yapp on this freaking bedazzled microphone. Okay? And have my little army of girly pops online, which is soon going to be in person. Oh my god, the vision of events in my mind when I say that, like, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, it has to happen. It has to happen. Anyways, let's get into this freaking episode of how to get your spark back. Because like I said, this was requested by you because I know that there are so many heavy things going on right now and it can be very, very, very discouraging and unmotivating. And I asked on The Wellness Cafe Instagram, which if you don't follow it, my personal socials and The Wellness Cafe socials are always linked in the show notes of the episode. If you want to see the behind the scenes of my life or be included in things for the show. But I had put up a question box on The Wellness Cafe Instagram asking what specifically you wanted to hear when it comes to getting your spark back. And some of the answers were asking how to get your spark back when you're super depressed, how to force yourself to stay in a self care routine, how to find joy in your day to day, struggling to get your spark back after major health issues, which also been there done that. I think it was like two years of chronic health issues for me and then like a year crashing out over a breakup. So I feel like my spark was really not fully there for like a good solid two and a half, three freaking years. So also like shout out to all my freaking girls who are going through chronic health issues. I know how fucking draining that can be and how horrible it is. And I, this is, I get so many questions asking about like PCOS stuff and health stuff. And what the freak ever happened with that. And I just get so worked up, one could say, like I can't even record a podcast episode about it. I need to be in a boxing studio is how upset I am at the health care system, specifically women's health on this world, in this fucking planet. I can't talk about it, okay? Everyone, I keep getting random questions that are like, hey, what happened to all that health stuff? Like, I don't have answers, I just started not giving a shit and controlling what I can control. Like literally no one ever gave me answers for anything. I just really tapped in to prioritizing myself and like, stopped spending all my freaking time and money in the naturopath's office and going to doctor's offices. And I basically just like gave up. And I know that's not the answer that you want to hear. It's also not the answer that I wanted to tell you because after all that time, I like wanted to have some answers. But yeah, let's just not get in to that, okay? Back to how to get your spark back. Just wanted to say for my girls struggling with health issues, I'm so freaking sorry that you're dealing with that. And I know that it is the worst feeling in the entire world. So this episode is not just like getting your spark back after a breakup. It can go for health issues. It can go for getting fired from your job, going through a breakup, going through a friendship breakup, finding yourself again. Like getting your spark back in general for life is the theme of today's episode. And I really, like I said, I do think that I have some really good tips. I went through the freaking trenches and you witnessed it all. And I really do think that I've come out on the other side. And hopefully today's episode can motivate you and inspire you to take the steps towards doing the same. Okay, so let's just get right into the tips for getting your spark back. And I also wanna say, no matter how down bad you think you are right now, I swear if you follow these tips, you will, I wanted to say you will feel like yourself in no time, but I don't wanna set unrealistic expectations. Realistically, this did all happen throughout the course of a year. So it's not gonna be an overnight switch, and it really will take a little bit, and you know, I'm sure a lot of people will get their spark back a lot faster than I did. Like personally, I was so lost that I didn't even like know how to dress myself, or like I literally forgot how I did my makeup. Like I was just, I don't even know how to explain it. I was not here. Like Trin was gone. And my spark is officially back, and I am so excited to be giving you this episode, but I'm sure a lot of you will be able to get your spark back in a lot faster than a year. But also, if it takes you a year, that is so fine. It took me a freaking year, but here we are, and the time is gonna pass anyways. So you may as well spend that time working towards being your best, happiest, healthiest self again, and feeling like yourself, because I'm so excited that I feel like myself again. That was scary for a minute. Wow, that was truly scary. All right, so let's get you back to feeling like yourself and getting your spark back so you can find joy in your day-to-day life, romanticize your life, bring the whimsy back to life, get excited, get motivated. I want you to have your spark back. So, number one. Oh, obviously. Let's actually just start with this one. Obviously, number one, therapy rocks. Therapy is cool, therapy is hot. Therapy is chic, if I do say so myself. Never feel weird about going to therapy, or like it's like, I feel like it's not really a weird thing anymore, but sometimes I still hear weird therapy talk. I don't know. There's a lot of discourse about therapy online, but I would say that it rocks. I still remember when I was crashing out and my therapist went on vacation and I didn't have a therapy appointment that week. And I was like, what the hell, girl? What the hell, girl? Why did you leave me? You didn't tell me you were going on vacation. I didn't know you were allowed to do this. What am I gonna do? Like that's how much my therapist, like we were tight. During the thick of it, we were tight. So number one is that therapy rocks, and I would suggest it to everyone. Number two is trying new things. So as I mentioned before, is that when I lost my spark, I felt like I didn't know who I was. So it was almost like I didn't even really remember what I enjoyed. And I also didn't want to do anything besides rot on my phone. So if you put that combo together of like, not knowing what I enjoy, not wanting to do anything because I'm so depressed, and not even knowing, like the way it was like, I didn't even know what I wanted, what would help or what I liked to do was how confused I was. So where I started was just by trying new things and doing it all, and figuring out and remembering and coming back to myself and finding what I do like. So that would be my biggest tip for you is, if you can relate at all to what I just said about like not even knowing the steps on how to start because you forget what brings you joy, is just do all the things, do it all. I was saying yes to everything and any opportunity I got to just go and do things and remember, oh yeah, I do really like this. Oh, maybe this isn't for me, but I'm glad I tried and I'm glad I know now. I mean, if you were listening to it all, you would have heard it all, but I went to my first baseball game, I went on my first date with a man, I went to flower making class, I did tennis lessons, I went hiking, I baked sourdough, I took my little sister on driving lessons, I went to the thrift store, I started running, I was at my local freaking dive bar playing darts and pool, which might sound stupid at first to hear that on a wellness podcast about getting your spark back, but I was so wellness focused and so into the wellness rabbit hole that living my life and going to the local dive bar and being a young, fun, hot girl and having a big fat makeout in the photo booth is literally something that I wasn't doing because I was so wellness focused and so in my night routine era, I wasn't living my life, which is an entire episode on its own about when wellness is too much and how to get out of such a deep wellness rabbit hole because I think that living your life is also really beneficial. As I've learned this past year, that could be its whole entire own podcast episode. But I also, what else did I do? I learned how to spend a lot of time alone and just did a lot of random side quests around town like frolicking around, taking myself on solo dates. If you have been here this whole time, you know the backstory. But if you just happen to click on today's episode because you need tips on how to get your spark back, if you, I'll give you the spark notes on the backstory, is that I went through a crazy insane breakup and then did that the same exact time that I moved to a new city all alone and I only knew one person in the entire city. So throughout that time, I also had to spend a lot of time alone. And for anyone listening who also may have to spend a lot of time alone right now, I think that really romanticizing that time alone is really beneficial. And in that time alone, I also used that time to really focus on healing my inner child and going back to hobbies that I enjoyed as a kid. So for me, that looks like doing a lot of crafts. Like I spent maybe two or three whole entire days going on Pinterest and curating the poster wall that I have next to my bed. And that was like a very inner child healing activity that I did. And then I found all the photos that I wanted to use for my photo wall. I downloaded them onto my computer and then on my iPad. As you know, because I'm a little iPad kid, I organized the photos how I wanted them to look on my wall. And then I took a tape measure and like measured everything out specifically, printed them off at staples, walked to staples and then spent a while like cutting them out and taping them on the wall. So that was like a full day activity. If you need something to do alone, that was so much fun. And of course, like the whole entire time, I had a good playlist going, I had the windows open, I had a candle on. It was so much fun and I didn't even think about the fact that I was spending time alone because it was just so much fun. And then when I went to go for a walk to pick the posters up, of course, I romanticized it. I got a matcha on the way. I was listening to my favorite playlist. Like you really just have to romanticize it and do the things that you loved as a kid. And then also next to the poster wall, I found a vintage tennis racket off of Facebook marketplace and then put my initial into it with ribbon. So I spent a lot of time doing that. And then also made a cork board with memories of, just like my best memories on it. I have a lot of stuff from the Ares Tour in Sydney on it. I have film photos with my friends. I have some quotes from Pinterest, of course. I have the Dior card that Kayleigh invited us to be, or asked us to be her bridesmaids on. I have a lot of like ocean themed things that are a little too sentimental to tell you the full meaning, but just things that are very important to me and put them up over my space. And I also spent a lot of time bedazzling everything in my apartment, like bedazzling. The podcast mics took a while. I did the entire podcast stand, bedazzled that. We know by now that I am a craft kid. So those are some examples of things I did that really brought me back to things that I enjoyed as a kid. Also, concerts, like my mom and I would always go to concerts when I was younger. And I think that's really what started my concert craze. Like that was always my mom and I's thing was going to concerts. My first concert ever, I was on the floor for Hilary Duff, and it was the best freaking night of my entire life. I can remember what I was wearing. I think I was literally like seven or eight years old. And it was the best time ever. Like is there a better feeling than going to a freaking girly pop concert? I'll wait. I will freaking wait. Which also that reminds me, I've been looking more and more. I keep getting more and more videos of Sabrina's freaking Coachella.

Speaker 1:
[21:36] I have to look away.

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[21:39] The pain, like the physical ache in my chest when I see a video of Sabrina headlining Coachella and the pain it brings me to know that I wasn't in that crowd. Scream. Scream singing manchild at the top of my lungs. And like that was probably one of the best shows that she has ever put on. The costumes were amazing. The like the it was a production. I love everything that's like this is what happens when you give a theater kid an unlimited budget. Like it was insane. She is such, she's a star. She's a freaking star and it's amazing. Actually this morning, this morning a few hours ago, I woke up to a text from Socialista because I had been upset with him. Obviously, if you know, you know, I woke up to a text and he's in Europe right now and he sent me a photo of a custom lip gloss that he got me in Europe and it's pink and he got my initials engraved in it. So I'm deciding right now if I can forgive him or not. Let me know your thoughts. I also put that up on the Wellness Cafe Instagram stories and seeing your girls' responses have been so funny. Wait, actually, like you're my people. I just crack up laughing at your responses and then I send them to Eden and then we laugh about them together like there is nothing better than TWC and I stand on that. One of you said, never forgive a man, period. Honestly, you're so right girl. One of you said, dot, dot, dot, fine. One of you said, purr, but no. One of you said, I mean, I guess. Someone said, yes, but reluctantly. One of you said, never, period. Be strict. And then I put up a poll and one of the answers was, he's forgiven. And it has 59% of you said, yes. And then 41% of you said, not yet. But anyways, back to the hobbies that you enjoyed as a kid. Concerts and crafts were two that really did that for me. So I think a good starting point would just be really trying to remember what you did as a kid and bringing that inner child play out again is just so much fun. Like there were so many times where Fern and I were going for walks and just like going on the swings. And we would just swing around and listen to the birds. Like when is the last time that you just incorporated play into your day and brought back your child like whimsy? I think it is so, so, so, so important. And that is one of the biggest things that really did lead to bringing my spark back because first of all, it is so healing for your inner child. But secondly, going back to the things you love as a kid also helped me remember who I was and what I enjoyed doing. So if you can relate to what I said about like rotting my phone and not knowing where to start because I didn't know what I enjoyed, I think a good first stepping stone would be going back to things that you enjoyed when you were younger and just paying attention to what that sparks in you and what ideas you get from that. We are going to pause for a second because if you know me, you know for a while I was so sick and kept getting headaches and migraines at home. And it turns out that my indoor air was the culprit. Girlies, I have to put you on to Air Doctor. Some friends in the wellness space suggested that I try out this air purifier when I was complaining about headaches all the time. And I just have to tell you, it has made such a big difference. The air in my space just like overall feels cleaner. Air doctor captures airborne contaminants that you don't want to be breathing in like dust, pollen, mold spores, pet dander, wildfire smoke, bacteria, viruses, odors, smoke, ozone, like any volatile organic compounds. And overall, since using air doctor, I just feel like there's fewer odors in my space and the girl palace, you know, the vibe in my space is so important to me. I have reduced allergy symptoms and I almost never wake up with a headache anymore. 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This next step for getting your spark back is so, so, so important. And it is prioritizing how things feel instead of how they look. What do I mean by that? I mean that it is not worth it to do things that don't make you feel good, period, point, blank. And I do this so often, and I'm sure a lot of you can relate, where you somehow just keep finding yourself in situations that feel like shit. Whether it be hanging out with people that don't make you feel good, except maybe you're just so used to it, or you've known them for so long that it just, you don't really even know how to end it. Do you know what I mean? It's just always so, so, so important to focus on how your life feels instead of how it looks to others. Because your life is yours, not theirs. And if you're living your life to impress others, or do what you think people want you to do, or what is more socially acceptable, then you are living your one precious life for other people. And we just absolutely cannot have that. And listen, I know how easy it is to fall into that rabbit hole of living your life for others and like what other people will think is cool instead of prioritizing what you think is cool, which hearing me say that sounds so silly, right? But I know we've all done it time and time again, where you go to the party that you think you're supposed to go to because everyone you know is going like, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. If you want to lay in bed with your freaking jelly cats, and have a night in like do what makes you feel good. Live your life to make yourself feel good, period, point blank. That is all there is to it. And I also think that it can become a subconscious thing that you're just doing without even really realizing. And that's why this is such an important point, because it almost was like a habit that I had to practice was being in tune with my body where I was, really being like, do I feel good right now? And paying attention to my energy when I came home from events or with certain people. When was I coming home energized? And like I just felt like I got recharged. And when was I coming home feeling like, holy shit, that just drained the shit out of me. And now I feel bad about myself too. If you ever have those situations where you're doing something and leaving your house and coming back drained, you need to pay attention to where it is and what is taking your energy like that, because you cannot have that happening. And the same also goes for working out. Focus on feeling good, not looking good, because when you feel good, you what? You look good. So make sure that you are doing movement that makes you feel good. And especially if you're in a state where you're trying to get your spark back, if you're hauling your ass to a free weights gym to lift weights, and you hate it every single time, and it feels like a dreaded chore that you do not want to do, hey, guess what? Guess what? You can change the movement up and try a new form of working out. Get a ClassPass membership or like a free week trial to every single gym in your area until you find a movement that actually makes you excited, because working out is a privilege, and being healthy and happy and able to move your body is something that you can't take for granted. And working out just has so many mental health benefits that if you just find one that you love, that you look forward to, it will change your entire life and routine, and it will instantly give you your spark back. And especially now that the weather is getting warmer, I will always 1,000% vouch for working out outside. Like head to your local track, head to a staircase outside and go run stairs, start running. Also, training for the half marathon was such a big important part in getting my spark back. Having something that I was training for that I had to show up for really helped get my discipline there, especially in the times where I just wanted to be lazy and rot. Having an actual deadline and like, hey, you have to run this race so you better get your ass up and out the door and train was so beneficial. And like, grab your friend and even sign up for a 5K, 10K. The half marathon was kind of a crazy push. But like I said, when we were doing it, it was just one of those opportunities that I had to take and didn't know when I would get the chance to do that again. A half marathon was insane. From going from couch to half marathon in just a few months, I would not recommend, but like sign up for a 5 or a 10. Having a date and a run to train for was so, so, so good at getting my discipline back and getting me outside and moving. I can't stress how important it is though, that if you feel like your spark is currently gone, you need to be moving your body for your mental health. That post workout endorphin rush, you will feel like you can accomplish everything and anything that you put your mind to. You will feel like the most confident girl boss in the entire room. And if you try one workout and you don't love it, don't get discouraged, just try a new one because I promise you will find one that you love. Okay, next, you will remember that I had been talking about this a lot, but sometimes getting your spark back is like not that deep. And sometimes you just need to stop psychoanalyzing yourself for like hours on end and genuinely just go outside and touch the grass. Like I cannot tell you how beneficial grounding was. Like genuinely just laying in the grass, in the sun, no phone in sight, taking your shoes off, getting your feet in the soil, in the grass, getting your palms in it and just laying in the ground. There were so many times during like the deep, deep, deep crash out where I would say like, if you see me laying on the seawall in the grass, I'm so fine, don't touch me. I am doing really important work. And it just really does help. And this also like, I feel like Lana Del Rey always talks about grounding. And I think when you've been in your head so much, or like on your phone too much and just like consuming so much spiraling, like, like I said, I know there's so many heavy things going on. And it's not healthy also to be always consuming it and looking at so much all the time. And you just like start to disconnect from yourself. So especially if you've been feeling like you don't have your spark, and you're lacking that motivation that you used to have, whenever things are starting to feel heavy and weird, I really do think it's because you're not even like fully present in your body anymore. And you're so in your mind, and grounding is just like really a practice of like bringing yourself back down to earth, bringing yourself back into your body, like feeling your limbs wiggling your toes, looking at the sky, breathing in and out, just coming back to like real life, what is right in front of you, what you can see, who you're with, what is directly in front of you, not like every single bad news article ever on your phone, or the fight with your group chats and this and that and skinny talking, like, holy fuck. Holy shit, it can be, it's so unhealthy, and grounding is so, so, so important. There have been so many moments in my life where everything just feels like way too much. And then I went for a walk, got a matcha, laid in the grass with my feet in the dirt, took some deep breaths, listened to the birds, listened to kids playing in the park next to me, and did some deep breaths. And I was like, okay, okay, I'm here. I, like, this is what's present in front of me. This is my real life situation. Maybe I just needed to ground myself quite literally, and come back to your body because your spark also can't come back when you're disconnected from your body and from the world, like, directly in front of you. For you to have your spark back, like, spark needs presence and spark needs air. Like, it needs your real life. And it sounds simple, but I swear it works. There is something so deeply regulating about letting nature remind you that not everything needs to be, not everything needs to be figured out right then and there. And that you have time, no one's mad at you, everything is okay. Like, sometimes getting your spark back and healing looks like journaling and therapy and deep reflection and psychoanalyzing yourself. But sometimes you can get a little bit stuck in that, and sometimes getting your spark back literally looks like just touching grass. And both are valid and both work. And the combination of the two and all the other tips that I put in today's episode, I swear, will do wonders. And I hope you enjoyed today's episode, and it gave you motivation or inspiration to go and get your freaking spark back. But just remember that truly, if you're going through a period of feeling low or feeling like you've lost yourself and lost that spark, that is also normal, and it is life. And you know what? It probably is going to happen again. So the more you learn how to listen to your body and get back in touch with yourself when it does happen is all that matters. If you're here listening to a self-development, finding yourself in your 20s podcast right now, that means that you are doing the things. Like you're doing all the right things, you're showing up for yourself, and you're on the right track. Every single person feels lost and confused, and like they lose theirself from time to time. Not to literally always be the most cheesy person in the entire world, but the cheesy quotes are just so true. Like we need to bring back, we also need to bring back live, laugh, love again. But what I was going to say is that the lows truly do make the highs so much higher and you wouldn't be able to have the highs of life without the lows. So if you're in a period of feeling low or unmotivated or like you don't have your spark, just trust that you will figure it out. Trust yourself to guide yourself out of it stronger on the other end. And also give yourself grace because it's just, it's totally fine. We're all doing this together for the first time, figuring it out. Get outside, go live your life, start saying yes to everything, create opportunities, speak abundance into the universe, flirt with life and I promise life will flirt back at you no matter how low you're feeling. I was so, so, so, so, so low a year and a half ago and I'm just such a complete different grown human today. And I'm so excited to keep sharing lessons with you and even more excited for this new chapter of The Wellness Cafe. I love you so much. Thank you so much for listening to today's episode. If you enjoyed it, it would mean the world if you left a five star writing and review. It does help the show more than you know. And I will see you next week. I love you so much.